Beginning a reading of Pema Chodron's The Wisdom of No Escape and the Path of Loving Kindness.
What is the path of loving kindness? It is loving kindness toward ourselves which eventually extends to others as we understand that evolving of spirit does not mean we are less than now and we need to become other/better. It means we delve in with curiosity and playfulness to discover who we really are inside...to become fully awake in all we do. We move with intention knowing that all is enough right now. Not that I won't change or evolve from this place, but that place is qualitatively neither better nor worse, just different based on my experiences and how I am changed each day by them.
As humans we tend towards judgment. That is not a bad thing, but it is important to find the place from which we can stand as third party and notice that we are judging and see what that is really all about-who is doing the judging? How does it serve my highest good? And what is underneath that judgment?
So what I'm ruminating on is a series of questions: "How do I know myself? How much of what I know of myself is based on what I imagine others think of me? How much do I project that someday I will be all that I can be rather than seeing I am all that now."